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An Open Letter to Bank of America [Job Hunt]
Mar 8th
Whether you know it or not is irrelevant, but I, like many Americans, am on the hunt for a job. Now, I’ve been with your bank for a very long time now, so I figured that I’d give you all a try since I know how well your tellers seem to like their jobs. I do understand that you want certain qualifications, so, to speed up the hiring process, you’ve computerized it all. Props to you on that, really. However, there seems to be a slight issue. Especially after the HOUR I spent doing the application.
I have great interpersonal skills, computer skills, and mathematics skills. I’ve been doing customer service for more than a year straight, and I’ve dealt directly with cash for over a year as well. Yet, somehow, I’m not qualified to work 20 hour per week teller shifts. Maybe I read it wrong, and I’m over-qualified, but I think that instead of just denying someone like that, you should have the local manager take a look at it before discarding it.
Frankly, I think I’m fully capable of supervising a group of tellers. Then again, what do I know, I’ve only got about 6 references that would back that statement up. Also, like I said, I’ve been with your bank for a very long time, I’ve already got your basics down, how hard could this job be? Boring at times, I’m sure. I’m also sure that, from time to time, tellers have to deal with angry customers. I’ve had customers yell at me before, I’ve also had customers hug me. I can more than handle your (probably) minimum-wage job. I truly hope you don’t treat your employees like pieces of meat, like you do your applicants. Only what they are on paper, not what they are in person, not having to hear what they have to say.
So, thank you Bank of America for making me feel as though I’ve directly wasted my time.
And if you’re ever looking for someone in the Central Florida / Ocala area who’s great with customers, great with selling things, awesome with computers, and can dish orders out as well as take them, feel free to give me a ring or drop me an email.
Sincerely,
Kolin Toney
(304) 249-8454
contact@specialkolin.com
Just a Few Words
Oct 28th
Hi there, folks. I know, I don’t post as often as I’d like, or as often as you’d like, but I’d just like to say that I’m still alive, and I’m doing much better.
If you’ve been following all my twitter posts, you would notice that lately my tweets have been more upbeat than usual. No, I’m not getting involved with a girl, I’m not on drugs, I don’t absolutely love my job, and I’m probably not completely crazy. However I did have some time to myself, no tweets or any kinds of updates, in which time I was able to confront (partially) this intense guilt complex of mine.
When coming out and apologizing for something that you’ve done, it takes a lot out of you. It’s scary, and can torment you for days afterward. But I felt that it needed to be done, and because I’ve gone ahead and done it, I feel better about it. No, I don’t feel 100% guilt free, but I haven’t been overwhelmed by my guilt since.
Now, I don’t want to make this post about my neuroses or making myself sound good (although, I’m sure it’s not). I just would like to say that I’ve been pretty worked out lately, and my time off hasn’t been spent appropriately, and I’d like to apologize to those I’ve been ignoring… or if it’s seemed like I have been.
Anyhow… in other news, I’m getting my grimey little fingers on an iPhone 3Gs soon (hopefully Friday or Saturday) and I’ve got a new job. I’m more happy than usual, and I’m still in a rather large amount of leg pain.
All in all, I’m going to end the night with the Top Flickr Photo of the day. I hope you all enjoy when I post them. I just like to show off the photos of mine that have gotten the highest number of views for the day.
Goodnight to you all… have a pleasant tomorrow, and, as always, have fun with your bodies.
Today’s Lesson: Just Do It
Oct 6th
I don’t want to make this sound like getting into a nasty car wreck is a good thing… but if it’s shown me anything, it’s just to stop being nervous about crap, and in reality, it’s probably the most difficult thing to do.
But when it comes down to it, what stands between you and what you want? Money? Status? A wall? More than likely the answer for that is fear. Fear of the unknown is flat out the most common fear. Some call it being “nervous.” In your mind, you want to do something, but you just don’t know what’s going to happen when you do it, so you take, or try to take some sort of safe way out, most likely embarrassing yourself.
So, what do you do? Nike said it best and most simply: JUST DO IT. But, why should you just go ahead and risk it? Why not? is a better question. Let’s do a quick example… cause I’m sure this can be explained better that way.
Let’s say that you’ve got a thing for someone you see at least once a week. You can talk to them, but you just are too nervous to. Well, why not? Worst case scenario: you talk to them, they don’t share a mutual feeling toward you, they don’t know how to take it like a mature person, and they ignore you for the rest of your life. Let’s just say, for example, this happens… ask yourself, are you going to be alive tomorrow? Rationally, are you going to find someone else to chase? Of course! Don’t hold yourself back, take what you deserve from life, don’t cheap yourself out of good moments that you might regret later on in life.
If you ever need a good pep talk, that always works, too… feel free to hit me up if you ever need one.
Time, Days, and the Loss of Weekends
Oct 5th
I could also call this “when life gets in the way of life” since it’s basically what this is all about…
Three weeks ago, I started working at a certain place (follow my twitter, I say where all the time… I just want to keep my job) full time. So basically, all day every day. My work has basically become my life… between that and school, I barely feel like I’ve got enough time for anything else. I’ve stopped playing World of Warcraft because of all that… believe it.
The past two days I’ve actually had off, first time I’ve had so much time on my hands. Unfortunately, it’s turned into an absolute waste of time… makes me feel so lame in that I haven’t hung out with my of my friends and I haven’t even gone out of the house, except to go to class around 5pm today.
I get another day off later this week, so I am thinking of planning some crap out. I know Tom and I are going to go for dinner and hopefully we’ll see some people we know and something interesting happens. Who knows. You know, I’ll just throw myself out in the open and just say that if you want to hang out with me, just let me know, and we’ll work something out.
Here’s the shtick:
call/text/mms me: 352.249.8454 and we’ll do something.
Not to do much promotion on here for my other podcast, but if you want to be on SKSFE, let me know, I’m always welcome to have guests.
Ignore This Post
Oct 4th
I honestly do not intend to say anything of interest in this post. I just feel like expressing a few things, as well as noting a couple things I should share.
First off; mom brought it to my attention that since my site is on my business cards, that some folks might come onto one of the sites and quite possibly get offended by some crazy thing that I’ve posted. If you happen to be one of those people, I apologize mostly just to save my job, cause otherwise, I just don’t care… it’s the Internet, folks… just like TV, you can turn it off, or change the channel.
Secondly, I know I suck at blogging and podcasting lately. Work is definitely not helping in making it all easy, but oh well, this one’s gotta make due with what he’s got.
Speaking of work, I feel like I don’t even stop. I sometimes feel like I’m losing touch with everyone I’ve been talking to beforehand. Although, sometimes, it does seem like a few of you just don’t want to talk to me at all… but I suppose I should just get over that. The lack in going out and doing stuff with folks is really affecting me from time to time these days… I’m starting to daydream at work…kinda just getting lonely in general, which I don’t like… cause last time that happened, I made some really bad choices…
I don’t know what else to say tonight, really… I’m down in the dumps, I miss my friends, and I wish I didn’t feel the way I do.
Goodnight
My Dream – Aug 30, 2009
Aug 30th
Last night/ this morning I had an incredibly strange dream. I don’t really read into dreams, so I haven’t a clue what this could possibly mean, but anyhow…
Like I’ve said in a previous post; my dreams are very vague and it’s hard for me to remember all the details…whenever I do dream, that is.
There was Emma Watson, and we were making clones of her… with various genetic variations. Dr Chase (the guy with a pretentious accent on House MD) was “waking up” these clones. Then, for whatever reason, fast forward to a fancy restaurant. There, as usual, were a bunch of faceless, nameless people…but there was also Emma, again, and Daniel Ratcliff (for some reason I’ve got Harry Potter on the brain) Dan thought I was being a cockblock and that I shouldn’t have been there, so he threw a plate at me! And…then I woke up!
Drugs!
Aug 21st
It seems to be the topic on everyone’s mind today. Also is the one that people are hating me over. (or just mad at me…cause I know you’re just being nice)
I’d like to preface that I do NOT condone any of these behaviors and neither should you, if you’re under age.
Anyhow, the first discussion I got into today was somehow related to college students smoking on campus. I said that it was the lesser of all evils. I meant that where they could still be doing worse things… and are in most cases. Going to college, especially when you’re living on your own/out of state/whatever, is stressful, and we all have our own forms of relieving that stress.
Some people smoke, some drink, some do drugs*, some have sex with random multiple partners. Drinking obviously impairs you completely, as do drugs. The sex, well, it can be safe, but there’s always a risk, even in what seems like a monogamous relationship. Cigarettes, however, don’t impair you to the point of poor decision making. You shouldn’t drive after a few beers. You REALLY shouldn’t drive while having sex, and I’m sure you shouldn’t after getting high.
As with any of these, there are two types of people (in fact, there are ALWAYS these two types of people). One type is one that just lets any of these substances take over their lives. On the other hand, there are people who are actually able to be presentable in the public eye. That’s why when some people find out that some of these folks are addicted to one of these it can actually be a shock.
Also, I’d like to cover bad drug habits. Why? well, my friend is going through a thing, and I’m only able to add input, cause I care and all 
I wish I could say a lot about it all, but I’ve never done anything of this nature, but I can say one thing. If you’re going to become an addict of something, don’t mix it with other drugs. My suggestion is: talk with people you really trust about it, especially the ones that are in the know (form a good relationship with your dealer) so that you know what you can mix and what you shouldn’t mix. I’ve seen a bad event from someone taking anti-depressants with something and it definitely didn’t end well.
Also, maybe it’s just me, but I find heavy use a bad thing, especially when it comes to someone you’re dating. So I just highly suggest you try to quit if you care about the relationship you’re in. And definitely tell your partner about what’s going into your body, chances are, when the shit hits the fan, they’ll be the best ones to take care of you.
Yea, they’re all dirty habits, but everyone’s got one. Whether or not it’s something like this or if it’s something like… not putting the toilet seat down. But, then again, it doesn’t justify anything.
*when I say “drugs” I mean things like marijuana, cocaine, opiates, improper use of otc meds, and things like that. I do realize that Nicotine is a drug, and so is alcohol. I’m talking about illegal stuff or improper use of the legal stuff.
Back to School!
Aug 19th
Tonight, I went back to school! My very first class in about 9 months. I was quite nervous about it. The class was MAC1055, or College Algebra. My teacher was…well… interesting, but having a teacher for a dad, I know they all are like that .
My book, however, is not interesting… For some crazy reason, the publishing company decided that it was a good idea to NOT bind the pages… so I’ve gotta take the time and bind it myself 
But, all in all, I can’t wait for monday and doing it all over again…and then again on wednesday.
SpecialKolin is back in school, and back in action! KAPOW!
Going Home
Aug 16th
Tomorrow morning, around 8am, we all leave to head back to Florida. I can say that I’m glad we are, in a way. If anything, we need a vacation from each other, I think. Being stuck together in a small house is definitely not peaceful, no matter how peaceful the surroundings are.
Also, I’d like to get back to working with my MacBook and my 22″ LCD screen. I’ve just about had enough with my MSI Wind, but details on that later.
I’ll try to write a post while on the road, if not, I will write more when I get home.
SpecialKolin Update: August 16, 2009
Aug 16th
You may or may not know all this, so I’m just getting everyone on the same page.
On August 11, 2009, I was in a car accident. The car rolled, spun 180 degrees and slammed into the side of a mountain, totaling the car. I was run to the ER, and was there to find out that nothing was wrong. Luckily, I’m not experiencing much pain at the moment, just mainly in my knees, neck, and back. My head is mostly fine, I think I’m still a bit shaken up from the crash, having some problems typing every once in a while. Other than that, I’m fine. If you want more details on the accident, email me or something.
I’ve been up in North Carolina for a while now helping out my mom and my Aunt, but we will be returning back to Florida within the next few days. I’ve registered for classes at CFCC again, and I’ll be majoring in Psychology. I hope that I won’t be changing my major ever again, because I don’t really seem that interested in anything else.
I realize that I’m behind on EVERYTHING, and once I get back to my 22″ LCD screen, I’ll be 100% back to normal.
