Posts tagged life
Working and School
Nov 30th
For the past semester I’ve been working a full time job doing electronics sales. During that time, I’ve also been trying to go to school and actually get my degree in psychology. Mixing the two was nothing but a big mistake.
I wouldn’t doubt that there are some people that are able to do school work and hold down a full time job, but somehow I just can’t do this “be two places at once” bit. I fully enjoy the work that I do over the internet, mainly because I can actually do it while I’m busy doing other things. However, it’s just me trying to be at work all day, then coming home having 8 hours to either sleep or do school work. On a usual situation, I find that I pick sleep, because without it, I can’t function, and when I can’t function, I can’t do either.
I can say that because I have tomorrow off, I can actually join you tonight to express my feelings about this subject. I have no more homework to do since the semester is basically over, but I can guarantee that my sales job will be pushed out of the picture by the end of December strictly so that I may finish my degree.
Money does make the world go ’round, but these days, an education can give you more opportunities than anything else in the world. This is why I can honestly say that I look down on those who drop out of school and don’t show and initiative to further themselves. However, I look up to those who have that certain drive to get things done in their life and not just sit around and mope about how hard it is to get a job.
I would prefer to not quit my sales job, since I do have expenses and I do know how hard it is to get a job, but just because I know I could do a heck of a lot more with the education I have in line for me, I will be.
I’m probably writing in circles here, but it’s all I can think about lately. I want to make sure that I can afford everyone’s Christmas, but then I won’t be seen at HHGregg anymore.
Trust me when I say that I don’t HATE my job. I hate the hours and how much of my life it takes out of me. No one I know likes to only go out at nights or on the same days I have school. I love, however, the flexibility that my other job gives me and the emotional payoff it has. Sales just gives me a monetarily greedy payoff, which I am actually sick of. I want the paper that says that I’m smarter than most Americans in the field of psychology, not the papers that say I am richer than the typical lower classes of America.
Note to Adam: I hope I made it clear that I’ll be staying on-board especially starting January.
Just a Few Words
Oct 28th
Hi there, folks. I know, I don’t post as often as I’d like, or as often as you’d like, but I’d just like to say that I’m still alive, and I’m doing much better.
If you’ve been following all my twitter posts, you would notice that lately my tweets have been more upbeat than usual. No, I’m not getting involved with a girl, I’m not on drugs, I don’t absolutely love my job, and I’m probably not completely crazy. However I did have some time to myself, no tweets or any kinds of updates, in which time I was able to confront (partially) this intense guilt complex of mine.
When coming out and apologizing for something that you’ve done, it takes a lot out of you. It’s scary, and can torment you for days afterward. But I felt that it needed to be done, and because I’ve gone ahead and done it, I feel better about it. No, I don’t feel 100% guilt free, but I haven’t been overwhelmed by my guilt since.
Now, I don’t want to make this post about my neuroses or making myself sound good (although, I’m sure it’s not). I just would like to say that I’ve been pretty worked out lately, and my time off hasn’t been spent appropriately, and I’d like to apologize to those I’ve been ignoring… or if it’s seemed like I have been.
Anyhow… in other news, I’m getting my grimey little fingers on an iPhone 3Gs soon (hopefully Friday or Saturday) and I’ve got a new job. I’m more happy than usual, and I’m still in a rather large amount of leg pain.
All in all, I’m going to end the night with the Top Flickr Photo of the day. I hope you all enjoy when I post them. I just like to show off the photos of mine that have gotten the highest number of views for the day.
Goodnight to you all… have a pleasant tomorrow, and, as always, have fun with your bodies.
Today’s Lesson: Just Do It
Oct 6th
I don’t want to make this sound like getting into a nasty car wreck is a good thing… but if it’s shown me anything, it’s just to stop being nervous about crap, and in reality, it’s probably the most difficult thing to do.
But when it comes down to it, what stands between you and what you want? Money? Status? A wall? More than likely the answer for that is fear. Fear of the unknown is flat out the most common fear. Some call it being “nervous.” In your mind, you want to do something, but you just don’t know what’s going to happen when you do it, so you take, or try to take some sort of safe way out, most likely embarrassing yourself.
So, what do you do? Nike said it best and most simply: JUST DO IT. But, why should you just go ahead and risk it? Why not? is a better question. Let’s do a quick example… cause I’m sure this can be explained better that way.
Let’s say that you’ve got a thing for someone you see at least once a week. You can talk to them, but you just are too nervous to. Well, why not? Worst case scenario: you talk to them, they don’t share a mutual feeling toward you, they don’t know how to take it like a mature person, and they ignore you for the rest of your life. Let’s just say, for example, this happens… ask yourself, are you going to be alive tomorrow? Rationally, are you going to find someone else to chase? Of course! Don’t hold yourself back, take what you deserve from life, don’t cheap yourself out of good moments that you might regret later on in life.
If you ever need a good pep talk, that always works, too… feel free to hit me up if you ever need one.
Time, Days, and the Loss of Weekends
Oct 5th
I could also call this “when life gets in the way of life” since it’s basically what this is all about…
Three weeks ago, I started working at a certain place (follow my twitter, I say where all the time… I just want to keep my job) full time. So basically, all day every day. My work has basically become my life… between that and school, I barely feel like I’ve got enough time for anything else. I’ve stopped playing World of Warcraft because of all that… believe it.
The past two days I’ve actually had off, first time I’ve had so much time on my hands. Unfortunately, it’s turned into an absolute waste of time… makes me feel so lame in that I haven’t hung out with my of my friends and I haven’t even gone out of the house, except to go to class around 5pm today.
I get another day off later this week, so I am thinking of planning some crap out. I know Tom and I are going to go for dinner and hopefully we’ll see some people we know and something interesting happens. Who knows. You know, I’ll just throw myself out in the open and just say that if you want to hang out with me, just let me know, and we’ll work something out.
Here’s the shtick:
call/text/mms me: 352.249.8454 and we’ll do something.
Not to do much promotion on here for my other podcast, but if you want to be on SKSFE, let me know, I’m always welcome to have guests.
Drugs!
Aug 21st
It seems to be the topic on everyone’s mind today. Also is the one that people are hating me over. (or just mad at me…cause I know you’re just being nice)
I’d like to preface that I do NOT condone any of these behaviors and neither should you, if you’re under age.
Anyhow, the first discussion I got into today was somehow related to college students smoking on campus. I said that it was the lesser of all evils. I meant that where they could still be doing worse things… and are in most cases. Going to college, especially when you’re living on your own/out of state/whatever, is stressful, and we all have our own forms of relieving that stress.
Some people smoke, some drink, some do drugs*, some have sex with random multiple partners. Drinking obviously impairs you completely, as do drugs. The sex, well, it can be safe, but there’s always a risk, even in what seems like a monogamous relationship. Cigarettes, however, don’t impair you to the point of poor decision making. You shouldn’t drive after a few beers. You REALLY shouldn’t drive while having sex, and I’m sure you shouldn’t after getting high.
As with any of these, there are two types of people (in fact, there are ALWAYS these two types of people). One type is one that just lets any of these substances take over their lives. On the other hand, there are people who are actually able to be presentable in the public eye. That’s why when some people find out that some of these folks are addicted to one of these it can actually be a shock.
Also, I’d like to cover bad drug habits. Why? well, my friend is going through a thing, and I’m only able to add input, cause I care and all 
I wish I could say a lot about it all, but I’ve never done anything of this nature, but I can say one thing. If you’re going to become an addict of something, don’t mix it with other drugs. My suggestion is: talk with people you really trust about it, especially the ones that are in the know (form a good relationship with your dealer) so that you know what you can mix and what you shouldn’t mix. I’ve seen a bad event from someone taking anti-depressants with something and it definitely didn’t end well.
Also, maybe it’s just me, but I find heavy use a bad thing, especially when it comes to someone you’re dating. So I just highly suggest you try to quit if you care about the relationship you’re in. And definitely tell your partner about what’s going into your body, chances are, when the shit hits the fan, they’ll be the best ones to take care of you.
Yea, they’re all dirty habits, but everyone’s got one. Whether or not it’s something like this or if it’s something like… not putting the toilet seat down. But, then again, it doesn’t justify anything.
*when I say “drugs” I mean things like marijuana, cocaine, opiates, improper use of otc meds, and things like that. I do realize that Nicotine is a drug, and so is alcohol. I’m talking about illegal stuff or improper use of the legal stuff.
A Short Little Test
Aug 10th
So, for whatever reason, a while ago, I had downloaded an application called myBlogEdit, and to test it, I kinda need to write a blog post, go figure. So, as I’m doing this I’m also watching season two of my new favorite series: Eureka.
I’m getting more and more anxious about this coming week. I get this strong feeling of how my photography is really going to take off. It’s not just the whole redesign of the site, I don’t know what to exactly classify it.
I also can’t wait till I get the portfolio all set up and organized. Although, I feel as though there will be massive holes in it since my work isn’t that astounding. Eh, who knows, I rarely get feedback on my shots.
Either way, it’s about 3am, and I should get to bed now, I don’t think I’ll be using this app again, sadly. I’ve got a big day tomorrow, quite fun, indeed.
Goodnight Internet
June 5, 2009
Jun 5th
Today was just another one of those days. Graham came over, and we all hung out for a good while. In the mean time, I’ve finished my first successful Hackintosh setup. I really couldn’t have done it without the help from Aaron. Seriously, an awesome dude, he is.
I would really like to get back into my full time blogging routine. I haven’t done it all that much since, about, last year. I think I just been to be able to disappear for a couple hours every day so I can read and write. I’m so terribly behind on all of my tech news, it’s really depressing, to me. If something happened, about 8 months ago, I would know about it within the first 5 minutes… now its more like a couple days…if at all.
It’s about 4am right now, and Amanda and I are laying in bed, for whatever reason the lights are still on. We should be going to sleep very soon, since we’ve got a big day tomorrow ahead of us. First, we need to go to do something at her school, and then immediately after that, we go to an end of the year party that her friend is throwing. It should be quite fun, it’ll be one of the first times I’ve gotten out of the house for more than an hour in a LONG time, or at least it feels like a long time.
I’ve been feeling better in the past 24 hours, so I guess I had a little cold or something, which I don’t really mind, as long as it’s temporary.
I’m getting really tired, so I guess I’ll put some Sequential Pictures Pointless Podcast on and drift off to sleepyland
Goodnight Internet!
June 4, 2009
Jun 4th
I could title this post “trying to type on a different keyboard” so I’ll go ahead and appologize for all my typos.
Amanda has graduated from The Salon professional Academy, and I’m quite proud of her for that, and I’m still looking for a job or something of that sort.
The two of us are currently lounging about on the bed. She’s showing me creepy things off of LiveJournal, and I’m, well… you guess. I’m glad to say that I have my MacBook in the office doing some sort of work… or that’s what I’ll be calling it. [could be read: bogging down the bandwith]
I’ve gotten most of my new host set up, all but PhotoKolin [my photo blog] is up and running, and I really couldn’t be happier about that. I’m working with Teen Media Productions [http://teenmediaproductions.com] on all of the inner workings of it, and they’ve really been great, through and through. Especially with not charging an arm and a leg for something I could basically do myself.
I think father’s day is coming up, and I do believe that I have a great idea…as well as combining mother’s day and father’s day together, and getting them both a present. I’m hoping that I’ve got a job sooner or later so that I can afford it, even though i do plan of being able to afford it very soon.
You might ask how my health is holding up. I’m doing alright in that area. I’ve been weighing myself regularly, and it would seem as though I’m gaining and losing a pound or two every other day. I’m also currently dealing with a treacherous amount of leg pain right now from all the walking I’ve been doing lately. So much for that being good for you, eh?
All in all, since the server’s back up and running the way I love it to be, you’ll be hearing much much more out of me, wether you want to or not!
May 6th, 2009
May 7th
Today was different from most days as of late. Considering that I was here at Amanda’s house all by myself. Well, not ALL by myself, I was here with her mother, but you get the general idea. Needless to say I felt a little hopeless.
I tried to do a little help around the house. I cleaned a bit of Amanda’s room up, and I (kinda) fixed Doug’s computer. Then I watched some Family Guy, and found out that I can actually keep my iPhone, which made me extatically happy.
Later on, I looked up cars online and how much loans would be and how much I would have to pay monthly for a Cadillac I found (and really like) for about $3,000. After that I looked up insurance for said car, and I was able to find a really good rate with Geico, which is nice…probably because I already have insurance with them… or at least I did, I dunno if mom has cancelled my insurance with them yet 
So, as far as I can see, my expences will be something like:
$50/month for phone
$60/month for the Car
$100/month for the insurance (and yes, it’s the recommended amount of insurance)
So, as long as I have $500 a month, I’m good. Then, of course, is the problem with food and rent that I would have to be paying… sooooo hopefully I’d be able to survive making $1,000 a month, cause I seriously doubt that I’d be able to make much more than that.
Amanda makes me happy at the end of the day, though, so I’ll be okay with not eating some times.
I also have a headache…damn
