Posts tagged october
Just a Few Words
Oct 28th
Hi there, folks. I know, I don’t post as often as I’d like, or as often as you’d like, but I’d just like to say that I’m still alive, and I’m doing much better.
If you’ve been following all my twitter posts, you would notice that lately my tweets have been more upbeat than usual. No, I’m not getting involved with a girl, I’m not on drugs, I don’t absolutely love my job, and I’m probably not completely crazy. However I did have some time to myself, no tweets or any kinds of updates, in which time I was able to confront (partially) this intense guilt complex of mine.
When coming out and apologizing for something that you’ve done, it takes a lot out of you. It’s scary, and can torment you for days afterward. But I felt that it needed to be done, and because I’ve gone ahead and done it, I feel better about it. No, I don’t feel 100% guilt free, but I haven’t been overwhelmed by my guilt since.
Now, I don’t want to make this post about my neuroses or making myself sound good (although, I’m sure it’s not). I just would like to say that I’ve been pretty worked out lately, and my time off hasn’t been spent appropriately, and I’d like to apologize to those I’ve been ignoring… or if it’s seemed like I have been.
Anyhow… in other news, I’m getting my grimey little fingers on an iPhone 3Gs soon (hopefully Friday or Saturday) and I’ve got a new job. I’m more happy than usual, and I’m still in a rather large amount of leg pain.
All in all, I’m going to end the night with the Top Flickr Photo of the day. I hope you all enjoy when I post them. I just like to show off the photos of mine that have gotten the highest number of views for the day.
Goodnight to you all… have a pleasant tomorrow, and, as always, have fun with your bodies.
Today’s Lesson: Just Do It
Oct 6th
I don’t want to make this sound like getting into a nasty car wreck is a good thing… but if it’s shown me anything, it’s just to stop being nervous about crap, and in reality, it’s probably the most difficult thing to do.
But when it comes down to it, what stands between you and what you want? Money? Status? A wall? More than likely the answer for that is fear. Fear of the unknown is flat out the most common fear. Some call it being “nervous.” In your mind, you want to do something, but you just don’t know what’s going to happen when you do it, so you take, or try to take some sort of safe way out, most likely embarrassing yourself.
So, what do you do? Nike said it best and most simply: JUST DO IT. But, why should you just go ahead and risk it? Why not? is a better question. Let’s do a quick example… cause I’m sure this can be explained better that way.
Let’s say that you’ve got a thing for someone you see at least once a week. You can talk to them, but you just are too nervous to. Well, why not? Worst case scenario: you talk to them, they don’t share a mutual feeling toward you, they don’t know how to take it like a mature person, and they ignore you for the rest of your life. Let’s just say, for example, this happens… ask yourself, are you going to be alive tomorrow? Rationally, are you going to find someone else to chase? Of course! Don’t hold yourself back, take what you deserve from life, don’t cheap yourself out of good moments that you might regret later on in life.
If you ever need a good pep talk, that always works, too… feel free to hit me up if you ever need one.
Time, Days, and the Loss of Weekends
Oct 5th
I could also call this “when life gets in the way of life” since it’s basically what this is all about…
Three weeks ago, I started working at a certain place (follow my twitter, I say where all the time… I just want to keep my job) full time. So basically, all day every day. My work has basically become my life… between that and school, I barely feel like I’ve got enough time for anything else. I’ve stopped playing World of Warcraft because of all that… believe it.
The past two days I’ve actually had off, first time I’ve had so much time on my hands. Unfortunately, it’s turned into an absolute waste of time… makes me feel so lame in that I haven’t hung out with my of my friends and I haven’t even gone out of the house, except to go to class around 5pm today.
I get another day off later this week, so I am thinking of planning some crap out. I know Tom and I are going to go for dinner and hopefully we’ll see some people we know and something interesting happens. Who knows. You know, I’ll just throw myself out in the open and just say that if you want to hang out with me, just let me know, and we’ll work something out.
Here’s the shtick:
call/text/mms me: 352.249.8454 and we’ll do something.
Not to do much promotion on here for my other podcast, but if you want to be on SKSFE, let me know, I’m always welcome to have guests.
Ignore This Post
Oct 4th
I honestly do not intend to say anything of interest in this post. I just feel like expressing a few things, as well as noting a couple things I should share.
First off; mom brought it to my attention that since my site is on my business cards, that some folks might come onto one of the sites and quite possibly get offended by some crazy thing that I’ve posted. If you happen to be one of those people, I apologize mostly just to save my job, cause otherwise, I just don’t care… it’s the Internet, folks… just like TV, you can turn it off, or change the channel.
Secondly, I know I suck at blogging and podcasting lately. Work is definitely not helping in making it all easy, but oh well, this one’s gotta make due with what he’s got.
Speaking of work, I feel like I don’t even stop. I sometimes feel like I’m losing touch with everyone I’ve been talking to beforehand. Although, sometimes, it does seem like a few of you just don’t want to talk to me at all… but I suppose I should just get over that. The lack in going out and doing stuff with folks is really affecting me from time to time these days… I’m starting to daydream at work…kinda just getting lonely in general, which I don’t like… cause last time that happened, I made some really bad choices…
I don’t know what else to say tonight, really… I’m down in the dumps, I miss my friends, and I wish I didn’t feel the way I do.
Goodnight
